Remember me

I am overwhelmed today by a thought.

I have an innate part of me that has always, since I remember, searched for love in its purest form. One of the many aspects of that love is, hearing this line, “I’ll always be there for you.”

The key word here is always. I am selfish, my expectations are too high. I cannot settle for any less. Always means literally all the time. Day and night, year after year. Any time, any second of the day, when I need to talk, need to share any joy or sadness,. When I am overwhelmed by an emotion which is seemingly unimportant, my small tantrum and irritations, or when I am just simply bored, or I just want to vent. I want that being to be there, to be responsive. And I want an immediate response, then and there when I need it. AND I want that response to be filled with empathy, love and patience. Also, I want advice when required.

I want an immediate response to my text. I want my call to be picked up then and there. I want an attentive ear like no one else matters. I want the best and right advice.

Sometimes I simply want a non judging and sympathetic ear to listen to me, or sometimes a hard and fast wake up call to get my act together, whatever the situation calls for.

No hindrances because of physical distances, work, studies, distractions, phones, time zones, mental capacity, exhaustion, mood swings, worries, or just an uncaring attitude; these are some of the many factors that hinder people from being available for each other all the time, no matter how close they are to you, or how much they love you.

Where else in the world does such a relationship exist? Do we not take it for granted? Do we even attempt to use it?

Remember me, I will remember you. Mention me, I will mention you. These are the words I have craved to hear. Remember Him, and immediately, by default, without any delay, He will respond. There is no preposition in the middle of the words, nor any comma in the Arabic, no delay whatsoever.

Today I am awed at this fact, that such a relationship exists for me, without me having done anything to deserve it. This constant connection which has silently always remained in my life, whether I used it or not, whether I ignored it for months, it was still always there when I returned. And what is more amazing is that this is not said by any ordinary being. If a comparison is to be made, imagine the CEO of a company, the president of a country, some celebrity saying these words to you. The more I reflect on this, the more it amazes me. The more I see the world, the more I appreciate this fact.

The funny part is, I spent years searching for a connection that would fulfill even a fraction of my requirements, when this was there for me all the time.

Today I feel truly blessed by this connection. I only hope I can attempt to make use of it.